Loneliness really hits me in waves. Most days I am pretty good. I am normal and usually happy-go-lucky. Then the wave hits me. It tears up my insides, bruises my heart, and makes my head swirl. I endure though. I keep walking this path. I wish they would just go away. God, it gets so hard sometimes…. I know people must say it a lot, but their pain is real just as mine is. The feeling of being so helpless in the dark. No one around to help you up. I do wish someone special would just… Help me out. Ease the pain in my heart and help bring the me back to life. I feel like a nobody from Kingdom hearts. My heart has left me and all that’s left is this empty vessel.
I literally crave affection. It’s not about sex. I crave somebody to cuddle with me, and to lay their head on my lap. I crave kisses, holding hands and running my thumb across theirs. Just looking at someone and thinking “how did I get this lucky”.